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New Man

A week long masculine empowerment retreat for men and women
Facilitated by Estera Saraswati with Team

Extract the diamond within to shine even brighter

Let’s co-create a New Earth

Join a week long transformative journey into self discovery, taking the next step into masculine empowerment. You are invited into a deep space of wisdom of Tantra to find inner freedom, peace and wholeness. It is a unique offering for men and women who are ready to be vulnerable, honest, raw and fully alive. It is a call for the New Masculine to be brought back into the collective. Expanding consciousness, taking the rag from under our feet to find home in a vastness of human experience. What does it mean to be an awakened human being in the ocean of dormant beings? What responsibilities does it bring for a warrior of heart? How does the process of building a New Earth relate to owning a phallus power? How can the embraced inner feminine empower the inner masculine, to know when to take conscious action and when to take the position of a sacred witness in silence? There is a new land to discover for us and you are wholeheartedly invited to be one of these pioneers.

About the retreat

The vision for this retreat is to call in an ancient wisdom, the noble spirit of the Shambhala Warrior and the Green Man, which are dormant in our collective psyche. It can serve us as a spark to ignite searching for a new response to confusion, suffering and truth seeking for modern people. It is an expedition to dig out noble values in mankind. It is a remedy for the new age man, superficially spiritual but impotent in taking direct action. It is a call for the Warrior of compassion without boosting the own spiritual ego and neediness to show off. Humanity and Earth need us who stand up for the Earth, for the sacred, for the power of vulnerable connections, who share and spread love with consciousness and awareness of their own actions. A New Man who turns to another human to be held with love and mirrored sharply, yet softly opening to own blind spots.

A New HUMan in a male body who celebrates mature masculine in a woman and his own feminine within, without projecting it outside anymore.  Therefore, he can be truly free of a neediness for sexual connection. He is on the search within to extract golden nuggets of inherit wisdom, simplicity, courage, kindness and tenderness, power of not being afraid to fall down and being vulnerable, cutting through bullshit with a sword of clarity and compassion.

A New HUMan in a female body who stops projecting masculine onto men as it often leads to “metoo” campaigns and disempowerment of own feminine, to say provocatively. She can take care of her own wounds of rejection, betrayal, abandonment by owning her co-creation and input into creating it, as well as holding a stable presence to let them be seen and healed within. She can learn to state her own boundaries and execute them clearly without letting indulgence and moments of dormant fogginess to cause self abuse.

A New Man can be a union of a Shambhala Warrior from Eastern buddhist tradition and a Green Man from Scandinavia and Anglo-Saxon pagan cultures. It is a descendant of Vikings, though evolutionary upgraded by refusing to use violence, seeing each life as sacred and valuable. He is not afraid of his own power and taking an intense yet conscious action if needed.

As we can foresee a New Man is a vast, unknown territory to discover together without expectations, but with curiosity and an aspiration to help building a new world together, thus becoming the change that is needed. Stepping into simplicity, connection and vulnerability is the ground for it.

A masculine empowerment group of all genders led by a woman can be a great opportunity to open some new horizons, a challenge to face and a deep look within mirroring blank spots in the own psyche.

Can I trust a woman as a leader and a guide into the unknown?

At what stage is my relationship with my mother? Do I subconsciously project unresolved issues with her on women?

Where is my value coming from? Do I still need to prove myself?

Can I see a masculine principle in a woman? Can a woman be my brother or reflect a father principle to me?

Being a man, do I allow my feminine for sisterhood connections with women?

Being a woman, do I allow my masculine for brotherhood connections with men?

Is my sight clear or I am misled by appearances and projections?


We have been living in an exciting and intense time, full of suffering and thus potential to liberate oneself and awaken to the true nature of reality. Men have been facing big challenges now. Women have done significant personal and collective work, healing themselves and stepping into self empowerment for the last 30 years. Most men were busy with fighting for their own and family survival, making careers, proving to be worthy of love etc. Some men have done their personal growth job in order to step in now, to help their brothers to rise up and go through the storm.

Some women have gone into a dark dead end valley of blame and guilt towards men. Revengeful feminism, cutting off men’s balls, castrating their masculine power and yet, entangling in toxic relations with them. However, some women have done their personal growth around healing wounded, broken hearts and owning the shadow of dark masculine within, that allows them to stop projecting and open up to a real heart connection with men.

What is really crucial now, is to come out of our confused, messy, arrogant life as humanity that is at the edge of extinction. You can see here some sobering images of our impact on the world. Though new world can be only born if we, as men and women, do it together.

In order to manifest it, women need to reclaim their healthy masculine and men their healthy feminine instead of projecting it into each other. And we even should support and learn from each other sharing these journeys, forgetting the patriarchal gender war. I have seen men in Sweden, where I have been living for the last year, coming together and being vulnerable with each other. I admire how their mature masculine was trying to embrace sometimes wounded and broken feminine within, sharing in a tender yet powerful way about ups and downs of their daily, challenging life. I could have also seen some conscious Swedish women how they were finding a way to stand up for themselves, stating what they want and taking care of a healthy balance at their homes or work place. I have witnessed masculine rising up in them and also gradually giving men more right to be in their feminine. Maybe it still needs time to get more mature and refined, yet important steps were made towards embracing sacred union of masculine and feminine within. Art, especially music, enjoying gentle nature, community spirit, healing together – this is what I have been experiencing flowering and wanting to raise more in Sweden. I am not surprised that Greta Thunberg, the face of engaged, caring, young, radical activism for our common, green future, is Swedish. For me she represents the new masculine, a Green Warrior.

How to proceed from this point?

Playful trickster

When I was writing about my vision of a New Man, I had men in my mind, especially Swedish ones.  Unexpectedly many women started to ask about this retreat. There was a visible push of women demanding to join. My trickster, connected with crazy wisdom, asked why not? Yes! Let’s open this masculine empowerment retreat for women as well. Let’s stop this artificial gender separation based upon prejudices what men and women should do and shouldn’t. We desperately need new masculine to land within us all, men and women alike. It is a call for brotherhood of mankind. Standing arm to arm, heart to heart, belly to belly, we can change this world together. Starting point lies within. Inner peace, inner freedom, compassion and kindness is something that can not be acquired from outside and can not be really taken away. My intention is to ignite the sparks of compassion that leads to joyful actions embraced by community spirit, as maybe community is a new Buddha who we wait for, as Thich Nhat Hanh said once. I truly believe in this. In this sense, an era of single gurus and disempowered followers can be seen as over. Though, we do need Three Jewels to coexist and be acknowledged with the same force and significance – teachings, teacher(s) and community. We can establish a new blueprint on this once amazing planet with a graceful interweaving of wise guides, teachings of wisdom and groups of committed people. We can stop the wheel of self destruction driven by ignorance, arrogance, prideful self-sufficiency and hatred born out of hidden suffering. We are calling in a carrying, protective and connected Green Man as well as a bold, awakened Shamballa Warrior archetype to descend, be embodied as the holders for new generations to come.

Phallus power reclamation

It seems like the time is ripe to reclaim phallus power in the world. Yet, it is not enough to have a penis to own phallus power. It does not really belong to any gender as well. It is as important to be claimed by men as by women, which requires from the latter to finally stop projecting their inner masculine on men and take responsibility for themselves and their own feeling of safety, clear direction and being loved.

Saying all this, men do have a significant role in reclaiming a phallus power. It does matter what body we have been inhibiting. A penis can bring both light and darkness into our life in very tangible ways. Masculine essence expresses itself differently through the male or female body and it needs adequate and wise handling.

Phallus energy has the power to heal, open up and awaken. It is the primal power of light of consciousness on the way of descending. It can be called in, gathered with a focus and directed through a body for the selfless sake. It does not serve ego’s desire to conquer, posses or increase self value. It is not subject to any manipulation or ego bribe.

Women, take your balls back. Empower your feminine

For women, it is time to learn to recognise confusion within and pausing any action also contributes to the growth of own masculine. Finding noble values you want to stand up for, learning to live by these standards, stop belittling oneself and others, questioning motives within, stalking own shadow, polishing and growing own potential, asking for support, going for what you truly desire, acknowledging your lust and directing it to your heart, these are all things you can do to own your masculine and stop blaming and expecting men to deliver what is missing in your life. Paradoxically your feminine will be empowered when you decide to step into mature masculine within. You will feel safe, seen, self recognised and acknowledged. You will know more of who you are. Your feminine will be able to relax and start to flow as there is an open, inner eye that is watching for your safety, caring and taking action when it is needed. If your feminine does not flow, it is difficult to express freely your sacred slut who loves pleasure and can surrender to her own juice, it is a vivid sign and a call for your masculine to be strengthened.

Next step in Men’s work

It is important to first heal oneself among people of the own gender as one can share similar experiences and a journey. The significance of men circles can not be overestimated. Thus, the moment comes to proceed with healing and evolution. Surrendering to the feminine essence within, is the next step after constituting a healthy ego structure. In Tantra, the feminine core is described as a dark all pervading vastness, an abyss of the unknown, the Great Mother as it gives birth to all phenomena. Heart sutra expresses it: Form is empty and emptiness is form. Prajnaparamita is a sanskrit name for it. The Mother of all Buddhas, which means wisdom gives birth and is the essence of our true nature. Wisdom is not knowledge, the former is non conceptual and comes from within, the latter is gained and acquired from outside.

Unloading a patriarchy heritage

The feminine principle is usually projected onto women in a patriarchy, which is a culture and a system of justified violence and separation risen out of fear. We can investigate how the feminine principle is treated by looking into women’s roles and the evolution of that in different societies. We can also look at how the Earth is exploited, abused and raped without any consideration, which no living being deserves.

To bring change, men need to step out of entangled relationships with women – mothers, lovers, sisters and their own feminine projected outside. It would be helpful to realise the own ego gains from subconsciously running games of victim-savior-perpetrator, needy-avoiding relationship patterns, fear of intimacy, fear of being suffocated and absorbed etc. Embracing one’s own feminine means reconnecting with a deep trust in life, innate space of wisdom, intuition, inner guidance, the ecstatic current of life, fiery creativity, sensual and sensitive self, powerful vulnerability of heart.

Recommended article to read more about this topic: “Mistrust to the feminine – wound of patriarchy”.

Healing feminine in men – the Priestess

We are wanderers who have been changing clothes countless times in a cycle of birth-life-death and rebirth. Grasping and clearing the past embodiments of the feminine that unconsciously run us from the shadow, is a vital step to become a New Man.

Heritage of matriarchal Temple arts rests within us. In order to release our life force wisely and consciously within, it is vital to transform the dark side of priestesshood, in male bodies as well. Temple arts had a very noble beginning as they were based in understanding of sexuality as a sacred power of creation, a healing force, a door to our divinity. Sexual energy was worshiped by whole communities and centred in the middle of them.

It got degenerated through centuries though, along with the development of the human ego, an individualisation and a growing separation process. We left long shadows behind us, still alive in us: Misuse of power and sexuality, sexual manipulation and seduction for personal gain, sneaking out of responsibility, lying, withdrawing protection, revenge, gossiping, toxic relationships, abandoning children, sexual abuse towards children for a “higher” sake, broken sisterhood, betrayal of love, mistrust to each other, more to be named.

What is my wound to be healed?

Road map for a self-redesigning process

Why not reach out and be inspired in our own thinking process by some noble archetypes while expanding our own horizons and redesigning ourselves? How do we call them back, embody and express our own version of them? Thus, before looking for new horizons, it is essential to empty the personal self as much as possible, heal self value, not to treat it as another unreachable expectation to meet, “to become a man” as a goal to achieve, but as a touch of magic igniting sparks of our own awareness. Our core is ready to be fully revealed and manifested.

Green Man Archetype

It feels like the archetype of the Green Man has been awakening in our human consciousness from a long dream. It was partially resurrected by Scandinavian men and their caring for nature and children, yet cut off from animalistic penetrative powers.

The Green Man to come is deeply connected with nature, an earthly man walking barefoot through the forest, listening to nature devas and spirits, making fire in the woods and sitting alone in the darkness praying to its spirit, bridging modern and ancient realities. He loves to celebrate, connect and self-express through his body and voice. He deeply cares about others – women, children, brothers, nature. His wild untamed bodymind and spirit is fulfilled with life itself, thus he is not needy of any woman. He can bow and recognise the feminine essence within and outside. He knows that there is no life without her as she is life itself. He is deeply connected also with the water element as the essence of life. Therefore, he can openly cry, be vulnerable, broken and yet powerful, with nothing to prove or to become. He knows he is enough. Magic is his reality, igniting sparks of joy as he is free, not bound by illusions, yet a vulnerably human. He loves kids, playing with them as equals, seeing them as powerful manifestors of magic and flow of creativity. He fully surrenders into love making, sexuality is his prayer. Nature can also be his lover. This is an archetype.

What wants to be revealed through me?

Shambhala Warrior Archetype

In ancient Far Eastern cultures, buddhist tales speak of a magical Shambhala kingdom of enlightened society living in peace and happiness together. Who is a Shambhala Warrior nowadays? There is a great book on that by Trungpa Rinpoche, a precious one to read. My understanding is to bring back the noble values to our human existence. To stand up for them, even if there is no gain and also in lost cases. We miss the power of truth in words in the present world, clarity of communication, courage to speak up, chant out, to take unpopular decisions, to contain our own power if it does not serve a common good, transparency, radical honesty, stability while facing emotions or attractions, presence and mindfulness, deeply listening to the space and to unspoken voices of the ones who can not have a strong voice yet, putting our own gain and interest aside for the sake of the whole.

What wants to be revealed through me?

What can happen during this retreat?

The process will be designed to a particular group of individuals which will show up. Modern practices include all levels of existence of body-heart-mind-spirit coming from an understanding of wisdom of buddhist Tantra that aims to embody the awakened mind. Fully owning sexual energy, bringing it into the core, emboding the masculine and feminine as well as establishing a stable, peaceful mind and opening a powerful, vulnerable space of heart. This will be the fundament for all practices.

  • vision quests
  • sitting meditation
  • temple arts including intimate touch, self or others, depending on personal boundaries
  • rituals
  • lingam and energetic yoni pujas
  • dance
  • voice work
  • insight and truth seeking
  • circles of radical honesty and compassion
  • inspirational teachings
  • intimate sharings

Who is this retreat suitable for?

It is for men and women of any sex orientation or age who deeply care about our common future and want to embody the New Masculine. For ones who:

  • have already done some masculine work and are ready to be led by a woman with strong masculine into this territory
  • are already on the path of self growth and spiritual development
  • have connection with their own sexual energy
  • have healthy ego structure and the ability to set up and communicate their own boundaries
  • healed major traumas
  • are free of mental illnesses
  • do not have severe addictions

Predominant aims of the retreat process are to deepen a process of self-discovery as a human being, awakening and integrating different parts of oneself on many levels.

Authenticity, transparency, safety, trust, mutual support are core values in this retreat.

It is an advanced Tantra (awakening) retreat. After reading a completed registration form and sometimes having an additional short call, we can suggest a more adequate retreat or an individual session first. We also reserve the right to refuse admission based on our best knowledge of the content of this retreat for the sake of the participant and the group.

Please make yourself familiar with the initial participation requirements, and after a fair self-assessment please decide whether it is the right retreat for you. If you have any doubts, we are here to help.

Everyone is responsible for the nature of their own experience and journey. We support everyone to follow their own process gradually without group pressure or expectations.

There can be nudity and intimate contact, energetic or physical, with oneself or others based on individual boundaries stated in the moment and personal choices made by participants.

After completing and sending the application form for the retreat, next steps of the registration process, like the agreement of participation, terms and dates of payments, will be sent by email.

Organisational Information

Venue: Sweden, 776 74 Stjärnsund, Fridhem Vandrarhem

Price for retreat: Early bird 950 euro (deposit paid until 31 May 2019), Normal price: 1150 euro. Price includes accommodation and veggie food

Language: English

Registration via the registration form (in the Detail box on this page). After registration and acceptance of participation, further registration steps will be sent (participation agreement, deposit payment, refund policy etc.)

Registration is closed two weeks before the start of the retreat.

All details are available with the organiser (contact in the detail box on this page)

Welcome everyone into this joined adventure. It feels thrilling and exciting to be part of building a new imprint for the New Earth. We can do it! Together