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Four Pillars of Tantra Intensive

A week long deeply transformative Tantra retreat for the purpose of awakening your potential

Facilitated by Estera Saraswati with Team

Get out of the box! Live your highest potential and be the change the world needs

We are inviting serious Tantra seekers to join deep immersion into wisdom of Tantric path. It is a unique retreat where you will experience Tantric embodied practices and rituals to explore and develop the essence of what you are to embrace more freedom, active compassion and creative juiceness in your life.

During week long Four Pillars Intensive you will experience an alchemy of primodial essences of reality that will initiate deep integration and alligment process on inner and outer level. Self arising sense of fulfillment, joy and deeper understaning of your life and path is another outcome of this retreat.

Please read carefully who it is designed for and what requirements you need to meet to join. Registration process will be closed two weeks prior to the retreat starting date.

About this retreat

This intense retreat will deepen your Tantric path through a unique method of Four Pillars of Tantra, created by Estera Saraswati and Zenon D. Dorje, that is a fast track into the essence of Tantra, a path of embodied spirituality and ecstatic self-liberation from matrix illusions. This method emerged out of rich personal experience, transmissions and wisdom of traditional Tantra. Contemporary skilful means help to adjust traditional path to modern men and women in the most effective and accessible way.

This retreat’s purpose is not sexual healing or personal processing of emotional wounds. During this retreat you will receive a lot of knowledge, wisdom and experience of Four Tantric Essences on three levels of consciousness, energy and body.  Your capacity of experiencing joy, ease, love and freedom in your daily life will expand. Healing will be a natural, effortless outcome on the way to awakening.

Outer creator is dead

When one experiences alchemy of Four Pillars of Tantra, one gets an immediate insight that there is nothing outside of oneself determining or dooming one’s life. Than there is no need to follow a magnetising person or look for a satisafaction and fulfillment in a momentary outer union of completive energies.
By awakening primodial, wild, powerful, creative potential, one starts to create own’s reality instead of adjusting to the existing one. One enters a new quality of life when one realises own possibility to access an unfailing resources of energy flowing through a body from all directions.

The only condition for this to happen is to create an inner polarisation. It works similar to a magnetic field, that is between two opposite poles, when a current starts to flow. This awakened and cultivated individual polarisation will inflame and keep an inner fire. This fire never fades and it is full of joyful passion, power and bliss. When this hot, blissful energy vibrates in whole body, one feels how thoughts, dreams and desires start to manifest effortlessly. The only thing than is to surrender to the flow of interdependent creation. Fiery energy ascending through the body gives light and clarity of direction one needs to take. If each moment one asks where lies the source of creation, one can recognise own true desires and can forsee the effects of own actions. Connection of fire, clarity and insight gives possibility for self empowerment, taking responsability for all that happens in one’s life and finally take main, center place in own’s life mandala, own world.

Coming back home to Great Mother Space

Everything incessantly appears from space and comes back to space. In traditional Tantric view, space is seen as mother of all beings and all phenomena as it gives birth to everything. Thus according to this approach, it can be said that one lives inside a big womb of cosmic mother. With each breath one dies and is rebirthed.  When surrender to pulse of life happens, one stops to be seperate, one melts and come back home, to the source, in order to emerge in a new scene, more whole and alligned with oneself. More one allows the old to go away, more space there is for new one. During numerous meditation sessions in the retreat, we will have an opportunity to enter a space of deep surrender and letting go.

Union of attracting opposites is the source of life that has been rebirthing in an unlimited space. Light and darkness, chaos and harmony, fire and water, masculine and feminine. Universe is unceasing dance of polarities aiming to union. Macro and microcosm have been pervading themselves. Thus law of attraction and union refers also to atoms of body and structures of pesonality that we will be using to rebirth ourselves according to our highest potential.

What do Four Pillars of Tantra offer?

Activation of these four essences liberates oneself from conditioning and limitations as well as takes one closer to fulfilled, abundant, loving life. It creates a strong flow of sexual energy within a flexible and spacious sacred container of a body without need of discharging the energy. Then one cocreates connections that open to higher levels of consciousness and insights.

  • true, unconditioned freedom
  • inner peace due to letting go of attachment and clinging
  • strong sense of unconditioned safety within
  • ability to effectively manifesting dreams and desires
  • stability in life, in challenging or euphoric situations
  • clarity of insight and deep understanding of world of phenomenas that allow to recognise your desires and skillful means of their fulfillment
  • accepting and celebrating whatever comes to our life
  • clear life direction and purpose
  • effectiveness and courage in taking actions and accomplishing projects
  • fiery passion of life as an endless source of energy

Mandala of Four Pillars of Tantra

Past experiences held in a body relate to feminine and masculine structures that we call inner man and inner women. The essence of Tantric path is to unify them within and evolve from root chakra up. During tantric practices we link inner and outer levels through practice with tantric partner. Inner parts interact not only with each other but also with inner structures of a partner, that multiplies power of polarisation. We introduce transpersonal level to this process as primodial aspects of reality that is represented by masculine and feminine essence. It is all set up in a sacred geometry expressed by Four Pillars.
When learning to embody changing aspects of reality, one stops to be stuck in one part of oneself. One stops to identify oneself with one part only. As a result more freedom and authencity of expression is gained.

Tantric practice in Mandala of Four Pillars offers deep understanding of who we are and how to develop to realise own potential.
During this retreat one will meet many insights, moments of recognition, revelation and bliss. Healing will be an additional process without special focusing on it.


  • sitting meditation
  • transmissions
  • tantric rituals, initiations and pujas
  • Four Pillars Mandala dance – mystical dance practice on Mandala
  • tantric constalations
  • Four Pillars Tantric massage
  • temple tantric bodywork
  • intimate meditations
  • art, performance

There is nudity on this retreat as well as sexual connections, energetic and physical, according to your personal boundaries in the moment. We support you to go gradually and stay alligned with yourself. There is nothing you need to do on this retreat. Everything stays up to your will. No peer group pressure. You are coming here to find yourself anew and you are guided to find inner teacher.

Important information – Who is it suitable for?

  • It is at an advanced Tantra retreat. After reading a completed registration form and sometimes having an additional short call, we can suggest more adequate retreat or an individual session first. We also reserve the right to refuse admission based on our best knowledge of the content of this retreat for the sake of participant and group.

  • Please make yourself familiar with the initial participation requirements, presented in a separate paragraph, and after a fair self-assessment please decide whether it is the right retreat for you. If you have any doubts, we are here to help.
  • There is nudity and intimate contact, energetic and physical, with oneself and others based on individual boundaries stated in the moment and personal choices made by participants.
  • The aim of retreat process is to deepen a process of self-discovery, awakening and integration of different parts of oneself on many levels. This retreat IS NOT designed for purpose of sexual healing, exploration of sexuality or improving relationships. We have other retreats for these purposes (please send inquiry).
  • We support everyone to follow your own process gradually without group pressure or expectations.
  • Singles and pairs of any orientation are welcome.  During this retreat, it is not possible for couples to work only together.
  • Methods include different variety of modalities experienced individually, in pairs, small groups and big group. We are inviting people for this retreat who are open to explore and getting to know oneself through different configurations. Other people are seen as our reflection of our inner aspects, and partner is perceived as a tantric partner, inner consort.
  • After completing and sending application form for the retreat, next steps of registration process will be sent by email like agreements of participation, terms and dates of payments.

Prerequisites for this retreat

  • experience with Tantra and meditation
  • positive contact with sexual energy and body (the aim of this retreat is not to unblock or heal sexuality)
  • healthy personality (ego) structure and the ability to set and communicate boundaries
  • healed major traumas (sexual, emotional)
  • healed strong wounds that prevent tantric practice (jealousy, fear of rejection, comparison, low/high sense of value, perpetrator and victim consciousness etc.)
  • lack of mental illness (also history in the past) – emotional and mental stability at a high dose of intense energy
  • no severe addictions (from alcohol, drugs, sex, pornography)
  • admission to the retreat based on fulfilled registration form

Acceptance of participation based on a fulfilled registration form

Important, please read

For the sake of all participants and group process, each application will be examined and checked first if a given motivation and information fits into the curriculum of this retreat. We do our best that this retreat can meet needs of participants. In some cases, after reading a completed registration form and sometimes having an additional short call, we can suggest different retreat or an individual session first. We also reserve the right to refuse admission based on our best knowledge of the content of this retreat.

Further steps of the Registration Process will be sent by e-mail, including participation agreement as well as the terms of payments.

Organisation information

Start of the retreat is on the first day in the evening around 6-7 pm. Retreat ends with lunch the last day around 2 pm.

Language: English

Price: Early Bird 990 euro till April 21 (deposit paid). Full 1150 euro

Retreat price includes vegan food and accommodation.

Registration via the registration form (in the Detail box on this page). After registration and acceptance of participation, further registration steps will be sent (participation agreement, deposit payment, refund policy etc.)

Registration is closed two weeks before a start of the retreat.

All details available with organisers (contact in the Detail box on this page)